Shocked this thread lasted 6 pages...

[Psychodrake]

Funnily enough Wisdom, I had the exact same mindset that you had for a good while going through Sixth Form. I had friends, I knew most of them would leave for Uni in the future or move to new countries even. Something just clicked this year, it really isn't as bad as you think at all. I'm currently 19 and happier than I have ever been. My life hasn't been an easy one either, I currently have rheumatoid arthritis and liver disease due to auto-immune problems which have made my life a c'faffle in the past at times to say the least, being seperated from friends without choice even though they would usually pull through for me. The feeling of loneliness is very painful, I can vouch for you there.

All of the emotions that build up around this age are a big part of growing up. Like I and many others on this thread have said, it isn't as bad as your mind is making it out to be. It is important to keep in contact with old friends though, one of my most important friends went off to Leeds university but we still meet up as regularly as possible.

[wisdomseyes1]

Inquisitor Stingray: No... nothing I said was sarcastic anyway. The gay think kind of just came up (tehe) with logics screaming into the computer :-)

Oh yes, and samult and I have been working together this entire time :-)

[wisdomseyes1]

Oh and it seems loplad scared lictorgirl away

And it seems I have scared logic away 0__0

@ pyschodrake: I am sad again

[Aux]

Feb 3, 2011 18:41:11 GMT logic79 said:

I'm sorry... are you saying you are gay? I thought I was the only one! So I'm not the only gay in the hobby? This is brilliant!!!!

Scott Simpson was the top Tau player from around 2005-2007. He wore a neon pink shirt, hung out with the wives at GTs and was openly gay. Talked to him here and there at events, seemed chill.



Also, the amount of baw in this thread.... seriously? High school/college is what you make it. Life is what you make it. Unhappy with your body? join a gym, read up on fitness forums and get into body building/fitness. Unhappy with your social status? Be social, go clubbing/parties and get women/friends. Network continuously, know everyone. Can't find a job? Network more, dozens of applications everywhere. Job doesn't pay enough, become more qualified/ask for more. I work at retail and pull in 10.50$ an hour for selling jeans/clothes to rich people, my 4th retail job from minimum. I went in and asked for that wage. Hate school? Get a good SAT score, get into college, get a degree. I don't pick up chicks at school or ditch class, I actually pay attention in class. I don't want to spend 5 years getting a 2-year degree. 4~ years of college, then I can start teaching at high schools as an English teacher. Go back for my masters, enjoy life, travel and generally be awesome at life.

Life is life. You make it what it is. Blame yourself for your failures.

[wisdomseyes1]

That was pretty hurtful Aux...

Really that's all I got. I had a 3 paragraph rant about how that was insensitive and you are generalizing and you think I don't know it is my fault that people leave me... but I decided not to.

Why is it when you talk, I always feel a little more hurt inside?

[Aux]

Hurtful? Generalizing? Faults? Insensitive?

Continuous excuses. That is all I see. Change your life if you are unhappy with it, don't sit around and complain about it. Get new friends, confidence, and outlook on life. I love life because I made it what I wanted it to be. It can only get better and better in my eyes. I don't dwell on the past, I don't think about various ex girlfriends/bros I used to chill with when I was younger. I grew up.

When I talk I speak the truth. Realism.

[webimpulse]

@wisdomeyes1: Okay, I haven't read the entire thread, so forgive me for being one of those TLDR types. But I do have something I want to add that I believe is universal.

While what Aux said is right about having to take charge of one's life and blaming oneself for one's failures, there are sometimes when I feel I am too much of a failure. But then I think to myself:

I'm still alive, so I must be doing something right.

Sure, it may not seem like much, but it's a starting point. And looking at small successes like that can put you on the path of making better ones.

Wish I had more to add, but hope that helps. Also, take a look at my "weepuls" thread in the Game Board and make up some joke units for 40k that are based on weepuls. That'll make you feel better.

[wisdomseyes1]

That's not what i meant. I came to the site to vent (that was the original title of the topic)

I live my life the way I choose. i came here rather than going to a pillow and yelling into it. I wasn't expecting for people to come and say 'your a loser, work it out yourself. Its all your fault that your unhappy' >=(

Guess what??? I am NOT UNHAPPY a little angry at the moment, but not unhappy. I was stressed, so I put up a rant. I was afraid of being alone for the rest of my life. people come. People go. Always I will be alone because there will be no one left by the time this cycle ends.

You think i am immature because I came here and vented my feelings? i think you are the one who needs to grow up.

***Okay that there was immature of me... :-(

[Aux]

Eh, I tried to help. Really... "I was afraid of being alone for the rest of my life."

You don't seem to want help. I could have come off as nasty/sarcastic, but I decided to go with the truth. Take it how you take it.





inb4 foreveralone.jpeg

[wisdomseyes1]

I didn't want help... I just wanted to vent... but I didn't think I would be attacked for it...

[wisdomseyes1]

This sounds like an attack to me...

[Aux]

Constructive criticism?

[Loplod]

Wisdom, I'm just going to say that I was in your sort of position.

I was Friends with Aux and we chilled and played games and one day I just pulled him aside and straight up said "I want to stop being a fatass, help me live my life"

3 months later and I have lost almost 25Kgs of fat, Girls have started noticing me and life is good. Now I respect that there are problems, But its that sort of tough love that Aux is giving that will help you through it man.

It took me 16 years before I got my life in check, and its great now that it is mostly thanks to Aux. you can trust me when I say he is trying to help and not just attacking. if there is one thing I have learned, its you need to be harder on yourself than anyone else is. But most of all you need to believe in yourself more than anyone else DOES! because if you won't believe it.. who will?!

[Aux]

I was a bit harsh to Liam/Loplod. I'm not going to lie. Combination of heavy trolling/inspirational speeches.

Oh yeah, he lives in Australia and I'm in the US. We just happened to talk online/game. Cool kid

[hive fleet pandora]

when i was in primary school i had a number of friends that all played warhammer, and it was all good and well.

when it was time to move into high school, i moved areas and never saw my old friends again, i continued to collect and build and paint, but it wasnt accepted so i kept it to myself. now, i am still in the same school, and as i near the end of it, warhammer is still not accepted, i have a few friends, but they wouldnt accept my hobby either so i still keep it to myself, girls are the same.

this forum and my local games workshop are the only ways i can talk to other like minded 40k players. over the years, i have come up with a saying i love "i just cant wait to get out of here and never see these people again" i really cant wait to graduate and get out of that judgemental hellhole, when i graduate, i will persue my dream of working in the royal australian airforce/army, and hopefully i will make some friends there, but will be leaving the hobby for large periods of time.